Friday, May 1, 2015

Shake It Off....

So many of us walk around everyday holding on to things from our past, our yesterday's, that stop the progression of our future because we refuse to forgive. Holding a grudge. I am a product of a absent father. I believed he was responsible for every struggle, every down fall, anything bad that happened in my life he got the blame. I just didn't understand how he didn't want to be in your child's life. So i built a wall of anger, confusion, resentment towards a man that i never met. I remember playing a basketball game when i was in the 7th grade, the kid that was guarding me had a dad in the crowd cheering, coaching, talking to him. i tried to bust his ass because the amount of anger i had towards my dad that never was there. That should be me, i was thinking. I was a lot better than his kid, so i pushed him, bumped him, cussed at him because i was angry, jealous. All my emotions came out and my attitude showed. We lost the game even though I killed this kid. But in my emotion i lost sight of my team, those supporting me. When i was about 21 years of age, my mom called and told me that my dad was sick. I told her i didn't care about what he had going on. She said, "son that anger in your heart is blocking you from being great. God won't bless evil." It took me 8 more years to finally sit down and forgive my dad not being there when i had my first child. Not for him, but so i could be the best father i could be. Still i have never talked to my father but the anger, the pain is behind me. Don't let anything build in. Whoever they are and whatever they did is not worth letting the history stop your destiny. TD Jakes says,"You can't take in air and not exhale, everything that you take in, you have to let out. If you stop breathing you die." When you hold things in it changes your attitude, it keeps you from being great. The bible says, “to whom much is given, much will be required.” There will be people that make you, mad piss the F off, but to be great it is a requirement to forgive. So shake it off and stop looking at what's behind you because you lose focus on what is ahead of you.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

This is a great reminder that we should forgive as we have been forgiven.