I May Not Be Where I Wanna Be.......

Man.... I use to be a mess. Not a care in the world. My moms tried to do everything in her to make sure i had the opportunities that most that grow up the way we did never had. She had me in youth choir, drum lessons, travel basketball, rec basketball, school basketball and church basketball......She even put me in private school for high school. I mean a single parent of two boys and working full time, i look back on it and all i can say is WOW! Anyway here i am this ungrateful little boy with no understanding of her sacrifices, I get put out the private school for selling drugs, put off the basketball team for my attitude, coming to choir smelling like weed. just a complete mess. It didn't get much better as i got older. Same book different chapter. SMH. One day I said enough is enough but i was afraid that all i had done in my life, there is no way i can go to Jesus like this. I went to church and the sermon spoke directly to me. Then pastor said, "if you were perfect, what would you need GOD for?" When Jesus was being crucified, there were two criminals that were next to him. One of the criminals mocked Jesus saying, "If you are the Christ, save us." The other criminal screamed at him saying " Do you not fear God, we are about to die. Jesus, remember me when you are in paradise" And Jesus said, "Today no matter your sins, you will be with me." At the end of day, you can change no matter where and what you have been. True faith can over power a multitude of sins. So as I sit here searching for perfection but continuing to make mistakes, I know God has redirected my path. So I may not be where I want to be, but thank God I am not where I used to be.